HELLO! Hols are here! yipee!!! hehehe, yesturday, watched this show called half twin about 2 twins seperated and later meet again after their parents died. The elder was jealous of the younger and killed the younger but burying her in sand alive! She took the place of the sister and collaborated with this man(he suggested of killing) which only wanted money. She stay in the house, read the sister's diary and realise that she did wrong. Realise how much the sister had loved her. Even without killing her, she could have all the luxury the sister had. The man had this bodyguard that like robot one, never speak at all! I tot she was mute! Well, in te end, she realise her wrongdoing, realised the evil plots of the man, gave up everything to her friend which cheated her! Long story short! She didn't kill the sister, saved her while the others had left, left her in a cargo truck. The bodyguard was the man's sister, she can talk, she shot the brother, elder tells sister boyfiend where younger is, saves her, calls police, blah blah! okay, ya, but this really shows hoe emotions can overtake one. The anger at one at one time, but later with a conscience. It shows, how you can just underestimate others without giving them a chance to speak up, only when you are in their shoes, will you understand all their goodwill! okayokay, anyway, wanted to tell you guys that I got 2 new frogs!!! yay for me!! I noe, first was hijau and katak, then muda and chok now PENCIL and FATS!! I got them at another shop with 5 mini babies! their called baby 1, 2 ,3 , 4, 5 for the timebeing!haha, okay, I got to go eat now, bye!
I am so SAD! You know Audition, They need some playpark account things and... in order to register need some SECURITY PIN! I forgot my pin, and if want to reset or what must pay $5! WAHH! All my stuff and hard work down the drain! Anyway, okay, I got over it so I tried making a new account and start over but.... the stupid thingy when create got some error or something!!!why like that? WHY? holidays just started!WHY!!! so sad! wanna cry....sniff...sniff. Lets not talk bout the bad stuff okay...
Hey all, hi! Feeling real down today! Real down! Maybe is beacause I am like sort of "ignored" you know, I mean, No one pays attention to me today! Anyway, I must learn to accept that I am not the only one around, when I had problems, I was the STAR! But now when My bro has problems, I must learn to let go, let go the STARDOM!! I am now, removing some applications on my computer, cleaning up the harddisk! Guess What? I have SIMS 2 PETS expansion pack, if tricia, you are reading this, please make sure it is after your exams if not DUN READ THIS! Sims 2 Pets, is soooo cool, I spent like the whole day playing, okay, half a day! Well, I started with a woman with 2 dogs, Jam and HotDog, bred, gave birth to 3: Jewel, Peanut and Jelly! Jam and hotdog are top in their careers: showbiz and security respectively. Girl in politics. Raised the pups, gave Jewel away for adoption, Had another pup:butter. Sold Peanut away, Bought Siber(dog), mated with Jelly, Sold Siber away, girl quit job coz I think the dogs can earn quite some bucks! Found Jelly career in service. That's where I stopped, ITS SOOO FUN!! tomorrow no school, yeah! Going to rest a while and continue to achieve my girl's lifetime dream: raise 20 pup/kittens. COOL EH?
Posting again since Picasa can only blog 4 pics at a time! Oh ya, I went for BFA practical today: CPR, TOC and bandaging!! And YES!! I PASSSS!!!!!!WHOOPEE!!*dustbin clangs*( marsh just tipped the dustbin) She is barking now at it, let me show her the dustbin is nothing to be afraid of. Hmm, she's running away, guess she's afraid, nvm.
Dear Lord,
Hey, guess what! I am SICK AGAIN! Didn't go school for whole week last week cause of stomach flu!! then, okay already then AGAIN!!! now, is because of the haze. The haze is really bad, really!! Luckily, all tests are over, now only enrichment week, how cool! tomorrow is games day, can't participate... just go cheer them on la! My dad got for me Sims 2 Glamour Life!!! It's so fun!!! Can't wait for pets to release next week, october 17th! Can't wait!! Oh ya, I almost failed my english compre, 23.5 over 40!! I failed the compre part but the summary pulled me up! Luckily!! Today, have no school coz of marking day, ya, so... lucky got one more day to rest, phew!! Yesturday, I didn't go school cause sick rite, I slept straight from the previous night to 6pm the next day!! 6pm!!! Amazing rite! My bro also no school, but he went out, lucky! but he is so going to get sick from HAZE!!! but, at last it is clearing already! stuck at home, alone, so sad...ya rite! well, heard that tricia's exams end in nov 3rd or 6th, can't remember, then wecan all take bus and go out!! yeh!!
YES! Exams are ending!! Horray! Tomorrow is the last day!!! Well, yesturday, besides studying!, I watched High School Musical with my family, real fun. Dunnoe what happened to me today, I woke up with BAD BAD headache and nauseu, just wanted to vomit all the time. Well went school, but it was still there, sms my dad he talked to Mr Lee blah blah blah. Luckily, I was able to recuperate and it stopped so I was able to do my physics and chem paper, Phew! What made it worse, is that one of my classmates was using medicated oil, so whoa, the smell got to be bad. Everytime she opened the botttle, I wanted to vomit!! Got math marks, ya, very lousy for me, Hey! I was the ex"math-genius" in primary school, now, drop drop drop down to the bottom once again! Aiyah, what to do, its life! Hmm, real tired, better have a good rest for tomorrow's last paper...Bio!
In 2003, discovered a growth in pitituary gland that caused diabetes insipidus(DI).
growth was stable and ate drugs to replace the hormone(DI)
In end 2005, growth grew in size abruptly to cause multiple hormone defiency:
tyroid stimulating hormone, hormone to control stress, hormone for absorbtion of water(DI), sex hormone, growth hormone
Ate all other 3 replacements except sex and growth hormones.
In 2006, decided do operation since growth reaching optic nerves and too dangerous(don't want take such risks)
tried everything like steriods but to no avail
On 16 jan 2006, had operation to remove some to clear danger in mount elizabeth by Ho Kee Hang
Biopsy states that is germinoma tumor( germ cell tumor), cancerous
Through 2006, completed chemotherapy and radiotherapy.
Chemotherapy= 4 cycles of 1 wk drug, 3 wk rest
Radiotherapy= 5 weeks daily radiation
2007, happy and starting school! But still under life-long hormone replacment
In 2006, I went for a surgery to remove a growth from my brain. After recovery, I experienced chemotherapy which made me weak, tired and caused my immunity to drop. I also had radiotherapy that will eventually lead to side effects which may affect my life in the future. Since then, I have lost my stamina and my strength. My immunity is low and I am capable of contracting sicknesses and viruses more easily than others. Due to my multiple hormone defiency, I have to live being short for my age until I receive treatment which will only be sometime soon. Not just that, but I must be on tablet medication for life.
All these have affected my life so much. I cannot do things which I could do earlier before. I used to be able to run fast, now I cannot even go up the stairs. I used to be able to swim multiple laps in the pool, now I can only do a few with muscle pains at the end. My stature has affected me greatly too. It is common to hear people calling me ‘primary three’ or ‘little girl’. I feel insulted all the times even though I knew it was not on purpose. Shortness has led to many disadvantages, too numerous for me to recount.
With all these problems in my life, excluding additional ones from time to time, I feel that I do not want to live such a life, with sickness and disease. With people that do not understand and give rude comments that I take to heart. I just wish that I can be like others, normal and healthy. I will be able to run, skip, jog, interact, swim and many more without fear and difficulty. I can go out without negative comments from anyone and without the ‘primary three’ talk, but instead the ‘secondary two’ talk, a talk I have never heard anywhere else, except in school.
Now, I hope you know how I feel, the pain and difficulty I experience in my life, the ignorance and fear I receive. Now you know why I dream such a dream- a dream of being able to become a healthy, unsickly person. I know that if I do my best and take care of myself, this dream will come true. But with your help, I am more encouraged to fight on. So, I hope you will want to help me achieve this dream, a dream that seems easy and pointless to you but difficult and meaningful to me.